Learn to doubt NOT!

“It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not. “ ~Unknown Author

Doubt |dout|

Noun

-A feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction

Doubt is something that can be conscious or subconscious, but either way carry a lot of power in the way you live your life. Over the past 11 days, I’ve been on a tour with my good friends Awaken Wells (www.facebook.com/awakenwells) through D.C., Georgia, Florida, and South Carolina. It was an amazing experience that I’ll never forget. What does doubt have to do with this? I’ll let you know.

On this particular tour, I was playing keys. Anybody who knows me knows that I don’t REALLY consider myself to be a piano/keyboard “player” at all. Really just in a sense of composition/production is the only time I consider myself to be a player, even when I’ve played for other people. Going into this tour, I was just flabbergasted as to how I even got this opportunity because of the way I felt about my own playing. People constantly assure me that I’m better than I think I am, but I still differ. It wasn’t till about halfway through the tour that I had to remind myself that God can use ANYONE in ANYWAY He wants. My character is what opened the door for the relationship with Awaken Wells and God did a work through me to allow Him to move through my playing the way He saw fit. Even though skill is important, Character > Skill. By no means am I saying I should/will not continue to work on my skill—because I have. I’m just more cognizant of what will last—Relationship, integrity and character. Building those things consistently has done SO much for me and I’ve seen the fruits of it.

“God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called”. That statement means more to me now than ever. Even if you feel that you can’t defy the “odds”, if you serve God, you serve someone that can. Have more confidence—not in yourself per say, but the God inside of you. He can do WHATEVER He wants.

#NOMOREDOUBT

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~~~M.A.²~~~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!

It’s amazing that we made it to another year. I think this was supposedly another year the world was supposed to “end” or something. I’m not sure. Nevertheless, we’re here by the grace. I just realized that as long as I’ve been blogging, I never really did an “introduction” piece or anything. I just thought the “bio” portion was enough, but in this being a new year and you all being a part of my world, I thought I’d give a little more.

“We’re all rubies in the dust, waiting to be seen, waiting to be clean, longing to be free”

I’m 22 years old, and I long for freedom EVERYDAY. The longer I live, the more I realize how God can turn ANYTHING into something absolutely beautiful. In my life, I’ve had to pick up my head A LOT. When I was younger, I had huge self-esteem issues mainly because I cared too much about what people thought—God turned that into something beautiful. Pretty much because I see how beautiful His love is. That cancelled the self-esteem problems out. While I was a teen, I had to get past the “never being good enough” syndrome. God turned that into something beautiful. Pretty much because I see how beautiful His purpose for me is. As an adult, I’ve had to get passed the “putting the whole world on my shoulders” syndrome. I’m sure some of you know how my head was left hanging down after that. God turned that into something beautiful. Pretty much because I see how beautiful He is in that the world is in His hand.

^^^^That paragraph defines a lot of who I am. You maybe thinking “he didn’t say what his favorite color was, where he grew up, or what school he went to.” Maybe we’ll get to that later in 2012. =) I promise that God can turn something TERRIBLE into something absolutely beautiful. Look for the beautiful turnaround. And don’t think you’re too far too be turned to something gorgeous.

“We’re all rubies in the dust, waiting to be seen, waiting to be clean, longing to be free."

I’M FREE!

†††HAPPY NEW YEAR†††

~~M.A.²~~